Todd Owyoung/NBC via Getty Jeremy Renner told Kelly Ripa on her SiriusXM podcast that he "was so pissed off" when he regained consciousness during his near-death experience in January 2023 "The peace that comes with it, it's magnificent. It's so magical," he said of momentarily dying. Renner is currently promoting his memoirMy Next Breath, which published in April and recounts the snowplow accident and the long recovery he has embarked on in the two-plus years since Jeremy Renneris opening up about the powerful wave of feelings he experienced after regaining consciousness following his near-deathsnowplow accidentin January 2023. On Wednesday, May 21, Renner, 54, appeared on SiriusXM'sLet's Talk Off Camera with Kelly Ripapodcast to promote his recently published memoirMy Next Breath. During his conversation with hostKelly Ripa, the actor recalled his near-death experiences when hebroke dozens of bones and was left in critical conditionafter he was struck and crushed by a seven-ton snowplow at his home near Reno, Nevada, on New Year's Day. "It's a great relief is all I can say. It's a wonderful relief to be removed from your body," Renner said. "It is the most exhilarating peace you could ever feel. You don't see anything but what's in your mind's eye. You're the atoms of who you are. The DNA. Your spirit is... it's the highest adrenaline rush. But the peace that comes with it, it's magnificent. It's so magical. And I didn't want to come back. I remember, and I was brought back and I was so pissed off." Noam Galai/Getty "I was gone for, I think probably for, it doesn't matter if it's five minutes or two minutes or 10, but I came back and I saw the eyeball again," thetwo-time Oscar nomineetold host Ripa, 54, "I'm like, oh, s---. I'm back. Saw my legs. I'm like, 'Yeah, that's gonna hurt later.' I'm like, all right, let me continue to breathe." Renner titled his memoirMy Next Breathin recognition of the solace he found in focusing on breathing during the 45 minutes it took for him to receive emergency help, and in the more than two years since the accident occurred. Never miss a story — sign up forPEOPLE's free daily newsletterto stay up-to-date on the best of what PEOPLE has to offer, from celebrity news to compelling human interest stories. Daniele Venturelli/Getty When Ripa asked theAvengersstar whether he spoke with anyone while he was unconscious, the actor simply said he entered a plane of existence that was "not linear." "It makes me, a man that didn't want to come back, really be able to be back here and live on my terms. As the captain of my own ship - get on it or off it, I don't give a f---," Renner added. "I'm going to live life on my own terms. And for nobody else — [I'm] very clear, the white noise is ripped away. I repel the things I gave credence to. I can't stomach the things I gave credence to prior to the accident. . . I invest into love and my shared relationships that I experience love with. 'cause that is the only thing that you take with you." Read the original article onPeople
